It was raining today when I left the apartment, I had a good 8hr sleep which would prevent me from falling off my chair at the office and would help me battle those tickets and escalations (they just keep on coming everyday calling and calling and calling). Yep this pretty much was a stressful week, my back hurts from crouching here at my desk, my right hand aches from clicking the mouse all the time, my fingers are stiff from typing all the phone logs, my ears hurt and are always red for i have spent hours on the phone talking. Yes now i have logged out of my Callmaster and yet im still here currently on the phone still updating my escalations. Yvorry, a manager here and one of my pals, is next to me right now asking for money, "wala akong barya eh cge na pantaxi ko lng" so I give her a hundred bucks and as she stepped away she was like "yehey salamat…ng marami…sa donation…" with an evil smirk on her face, i was like "Hoy! babayaran mo yan ah!" And there she kept on walking with that im-not-gonna-pay-u-haha-ur still-working smile, arrrgg!!! I would have grabbed her and said, stay here and work some more!, if not for the headset im wearing which of course would pull me back to my chair considering the distance that Yvorry had from me by now. Im looking forward to another movie from my list. Hope i can finish watching all of it soon. Im now listening to my new fave band Jimmy Eat World (well ive been listening to them ever since but i never really paid attention) and i really like them plus its better than the hold music from the telephone. haha! Im feeling so emo right now its all because of the rain, i hate it when it rains. Probably because every time something sad happens it was raining, so ive somehow associated them with each other. And by the way im still on hold so while waiting for the queue, im currently listening to my emo soundtrack and i have generated my suicide-slash-sad-songs-for-dirty-lovers playlist :
-> Michelle Featherstone- Coffee and Cigarettes
But its true
Im still blue
And i finally know what to do
I must quit you
->Yellowcard - Waiting Game
I wait for a lonely breath
I wait to surface from this depth
Wait for the light to come
And take away these images I kept
In my head
->Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
-> Dashboard Confessional
The Secrets in the Telling
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given,
we are compelled to do what we must do
we are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
for you will be somebody's girl
and you will keep each other warm
but tonight i am feeling cold
The Best Deceptions
I heard about your trip
I heard about your souvenirs
I heard about the cool breeze and the cool nights
And the cool guys that you spent them with
So kiss me hard
'Cause this will be the last time that I let you
You will be back someday
And this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips
Will be of service to keeping you away
-> Jimmy Eat World
Polaris
I'm done, there's nothing left to show
I try but can't let it go,
I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll start,
Tonight it feels so hard,
When you go, I'll let you be,
But you're killing everything in me
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I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Kill
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
